Exactly 2 weeks to violin exam. I’m sprinting this final lap. I just did 2 hours of violin practice today. This whole week, I practiced till my fingers became painful, until the pain numbed away and each time, I’d stop before the cycle was about to repeat itself again. At least, I think I’ve made some progress. This reminds me of the life of asceticism Siddhartha led.

I was looking forward to today, as always, simply because it’s Friday. Fridays are always special because school ends earlier.

Today, I experienced what ageing people experience, only it just started to sink into me. Everything felt different, more different than the last time. The atmosphere changed, even the mood. Or maybe it’s just because I am getting less blind. I think the first ever Cu is possible, but it’s not what I think some really deserve. Maybe zoom and ck have some idea of what I’m typing about. I remained rather stunned, all the way till violin practice killed all those thoughts. Ok I’m just trying to be as ambiguous as possible here.

Maybe I’m tired. Yes, I am.